Tuesday, April 21, 2015

The Song : Be Here Now-Ray LaMontagne

BE here now… is a song about wandering soul…in the heaven above… he died so many years ago…he is singing this song since then for her soul mate… he hates himself for doing this…he used to bless her for living and wished for her immortality …but now he wants her to be with him… in the heaven above… He is so sure about this…that she would be following his voice..this song…and will be soon here…. There is a silent crowd of Angels across his cloud… he is famous in heaven as well for his charm and beautiful eyes …. He is singing and waiting for his love….and there are millions of Angels already in love with him…but he is waiting only for her.... His Love..His Life …Please be here now…


Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Sorry I didn't mean to hurt anyone's feelings , but this is who I am

I was introvert by nature since my childhood, always secluded from the world, but its been an year and half people have started giving too much attention , asking about my health, proving how much they love me, showering blessings , love and flattering around .

This is making me feel sick.
I am all irritated to receive  such formal calls and go panic if I do not recive one. I feel like a murderer who is trying to hide its sin.

I want to be with very few people around me, people with same mindsets , that frequency should click , no formalities and less chaos .

Rest please stay away from me..for my well being... else I'll be dead soon and for God sake
  no need to visit during my cremation, please do not be fake, don't do it for society's sake , it all in the science, one has to die , but hello!! as of now I am breathing, if you want me to live longer ..kindly stay away.

Please stay away... Please!!!!!!

#Its a flaw in me, don't feel bad for yourself, you people are normal, I am not!

Monday, February 23, 2015


Is baat pe fakra tha ki mei ek ladki hu
Ab kuch samajh nahi aata
Aisa lagta hai mujhe toda ja raha hai
Mujhe mehsoos karwaya ja raha hai
Ki mera sochna galat tha
Khud pe fakra karna galat hai
Mujhe apni chor ke sabki sunni chahiye
Mujhe khud se nahi sirf dusron se pyar hona chaiye
Aur zabardasti ka ye sab dhong karke
Mujhe khush dikhna chahiye
Hasna chahiye, muskurana chahiye

Anushasan ki dor se gala ghota ja raha hai
Maryada ke naam pe sukuun cheena ja raha hai
Jinse mei rishta rakhna chahu wo nazarandaz kar ke
Anchahi rishto ki bediyo mei jakda ja raha hai
Khuda wo mujhe duur se dekhta hai
Chah ke wo bhi kuch kar nahi paa raha hai
Uske hatho mei hota hai sirf zindagi dena
Wo bhi soch mei hai ki Insaan ka aisa hashra kaise hota ja raha hai

Friday, January 2, 2015

Sham-e-tanhaiye hai kaisi
Ek dusre ko dhoond rahe hai janmo se
Subah ki roshni mei ,raat ke andhero mei
Kabhi chand tha to suraj nahi
Kabhi kirnen thi par chandani nahi

Friday, August 22, 2014

ना जाने किसने हमें  रोका है
कि खुद को ज़ंजीर से बांध के
जेल में ताला  लगा के
दुनिया को बतलाया है की हम क़ैद हैं
क़ैद हैं यहाँ अरसो से , बरसों से
वो तरस खाते  हैं , हमे दूर से देख के चले जाते हैं

हमने छुपाई है चाभी कहीं
ना अपने आप को बताते , ना दुनिया को
गम में ख़ुशी का दीदार हैं करते
अपने ज़ख्मों को हम बहुत प्यार है करते

तख्दीर लिखी है ऐसी मैंने
कि जला  के बुझाने की कोशिश दर्शाते
मज़ा तो आता है उड़ती राख को देख के
जलाते भी हम हैं  , बुझाते भी हम हैं  और उड़ाते भी हम हैं 

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

It is difficult when it comes to expressing myself…A word spoken out  increases my  heart beat … and another word makes my body warm…saliva is all there inside my mouth.. I took a gulp of it into my lungs creates thunder and storm inside my mind and heart… my eyes turned pale and restless during this endless meaningless conversation…I am waiting for a conclusion, a conclusion which would bring peace …but there I can see thousands of arrows coming this way through heartless bow with judgmental sharp points. It hurts.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

The more I know people…more I loose faith in you..God…I want to be alone and close to you