Monday, April 14, 2014

Its a full moon today

Mei anokhi si pagal si...baal fakhere chand ko dekhti
Dua ke bahane hath uthake...chand utarne ki koshish karti
Usko utha ke band muthi mei pani pe maine yu utara
....................................................................................TBD



Saturday, March 8, 2014

Dosti



Friendship..  the only relationship I believe  .. I am committed to it!!

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Dreams..

I whispered the untold truth ..my heavy heart was relaxed but the burden continued  when I woke up in the morning and realized that it was a dream..........

Thursday, December 19, 2013

What?

That second when you want somebody to call you, to hug you, to please you, to look for you...
 Let me sleep for a while ... here I close my eyes..and I can see you..no more tears..no more loneliness..you are here..seeing your eyes does that all for me...
-Shivani :)

Saturday, November 30, 2013

If this suppose to be my last blog



What if I'll be dead today, tomorrow's sunshine will no more be mine
I have not enough dreams; I have no future plans, though I thought I would be having a perfect family
I would want to stay in peace always, may be that could help me somewhere in the next stage of my life
I don't want to be in heaven, I don’t want to be in hell either,
I want to be in the limbo state, knowing or unknowingly living my life somewhere..
All I wanted to live but in peace and happiness...but I was in pain, depression, frustration..
I am better now..

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Raat



Mujhe nahi maloom mei kaun hu..mere bahut chehre hai…unme se kaun mei hu ..mujhe nahi pata…kya mei kho gayi hu? Kabhi kuch bolti kabi kuch na bolti..kabhi bahut kuch bol jaati hu… jee chahta hai mera ki  mujhe koi pankh de de..udd jao kahi..kabhi na wapas aao…fir lagta hai kisi aise jhund mei shamil na ho jao..jaha ek parinda dayen uda to sare peeche chale aate hai…mujhe akele rehna hai shayad…par andhere se darr bhi lag jata hai..par jab bahut mayuus hoti hu to ujale se darr lagta hai… maine bahut kuch bol diya hai..bahut kuch suna bhi hai..ji chahta hai farsh pe giri syahi ko mita du…mita du apni zindagi jo likhi thi maine…par wo kitab meri nahi hai… wo farsh wo zameen meri nahi hai… wo pankh mere nahi hai…wo aakash mera nahi hai…

mujhe sona hai..bahut neend aa rahi hai…par jab takiye pe sir takaya..kambal upar tak odha to kaan mei aasu bhar gaye..chupke se aasu poch ,,dheemi dheemi siskiya le ke sone ka man banaya..par neend nahi aayi..sochti rahi..ghut ti rahi..marti rahi.. par jawab ek bhi nahi mila.. na mujhe..na mere kaano ko…na takiye ko.. aur na hi us kambal ko.. us raat maine jana…shayad ye sare bhi kashmkash mei hai…isliye kuch bolte nahi..kya pata inme bhi jaan ho..par koi kyo soche…kitna soche..kisi ke pas fursat nahi hai…kisi ke pas waqt nahi hai…

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Poem

Khafa khafa si hai ye ankhein,
 kabhi khud se kabhi tumse
karti hai mann mei baatein
baaton ka silsila chalta raha
 kabhi hasna aya kabhi rona
 shak kiya thoda tumpe thoda khud pe
 mayuus rahi din bhar, raat bhar
 khuli jab neend subeh to dekha takiye pe kajal chain se so raha tha
 aur ankhon mei halka halka dard bhi tha
yaad si ayi mujhe us pal apne bachpan ki
 jab maa ne pehli baar bahut mara tha
 tut gayi thi chudiyan un haton se
puri shaam humne use batora tha
aaj bhi bator rahi hu kuch lamhe
 tute fuute se bikhre bikhre se
Aaj bhi zindagi jee rahi hu..
kabbr pe apni..haste haste -Shivani Singh